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My name is Arathi and I'm pretty awesome.

Sixteen candles on the 20th March '11.

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Sorry guys, my wifi has been screwing up for the ;ast couple of days ): and I'm way too lazy to blog on my ipod. Well, tbh, there is nothing interesting going on in my life right now, I just feel weird not updating for very long, so yeah.. Hm. Will try and come up with a more interesting post soon! :D 

HAHAHA I AM HAPPY (: MY BROTHER DECIDED TO GET ME A SNITCH LOCKET FOR MY BIRTHDAY! :D :D :D ITS PRETTY AND HP AND COOL (:



ITS PRETTY RIGHTTT. HAPPY NOW YAY (:

I LOVE YOU ALAGU YOU ARE AWESOME <3

Now you have amusement yay (:

HELLO :D

okay, basically I have nothing much to rant about now. Hm, life is pretty great! Sure there's tons of work, but emotionally, this is the best I've been. I'm growing closer and closer to all my friends, who mean so much to me honestly. I'm sososo thankful for all of them <3

AND I'M DOING BETTER AT MATH OMGOMG. I ACTUALLY KNOW WHAT I'M DOING :O

okay, that is just a really rare kind of thing so yeah, had to announce it online (:

Oh, and a couple of nights back, I was eating Haagen Daaz (sp?) Cookies and Cream icecream and watching 'How I Met Your Mother' episode and I was thinking, this is the life man. Feel so content and happy (:

I AM HAPPY FOR MY LIFE AND MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS AND MY BRAIN WHICH FINALLY SEEMS TO BE WORKING AGAIN (Y)

I've been so diligent in my posting recently. AREN'T YOU PROUD OF ME? :D Haha, anywayy. Hm, today was a pretty boring day tbh. Nothing much happened O.o why am I even blogging if I have nothing interesting to say ah? Hm.

OH, well Alagu and I had a HTHT yesterday! I swear these talks are the bases of strongg friendships! I LOVE YOU ALAGU, YOU ARE MY THAT (:

Oh, and my sleep schedule has been really screwed for the last 2 days man omg. I've had 4 hours of sleep in the last 2 days. Shit, why have I not collapsed? Imma try and sleep earlyish today! :D so exciting man. I FINISHED ALL MY MATH HOMEWORK :O Differentiation is quite fun actually. I can't believe I just said that. wth is wrong with me ohno. Anyway, I'm pretty sure most of my answers are rubbish, but hey! At least I tried (: proud of myself yay (:

What else? Actually idk. This is such a pointless, noob, loser post. But HAHA, this will probably provide me with entertaining reading material in the distant future.

OHOHOH HAHA OKAY I JUST THOUGHT OF SOMETHING TO SAY! :D

Imma give you a list of presents I got for my birthday! Exciting right! I know (:

1. Converse sneakers (:  [ I GOT BLACK ONES THIS TIME! ]
2. Ballet Flats from Hush Puppies (:
3. A new wallet, which I prob won't use.
4. A new bag, which I prob won't use either.
5. MONEY (:
6. CLOTHES (:
7. Book Vouchers! Cannot wait to use this! :D

HAHA, okay I kinda realized that yesterday's post went against my whole optimism movement. HEH. So to make up for it, I'll tell you guys what happened AFTER I posted that status. So basically I was sitting on my bed with all my things strewn around, and I was tearing up right. Then, my brother came in and saw me la. Then he came and hugged me then I started crying like shit cause I was so stressed IT WAS 10% OMG. Then he was just holding me until I calmed down. And my parents came in and tried to be retarded till I laughed. EPIC. Then I was feeling loads better. OH and yesterday my brother's friends came down with a cake to surprise me! So sweet right(: awh! HAHA. Anyway, so we went for dinner, my cake was a Cookies and Cream ice cream cake from Swensens. Which was really good (Y) my family was so awesome yesterday. My brother stayed up with me until I finished my lit, and made me milo!

My family is so sweeeeeet <3

SO basically my birthday wasn't as bad as I thought it was la. Sure, it wasn't very happening or anything, but i had a good time with my family (:

Oh and since I slept at like 3, which basically means that I had like 2 hours of sleep, I came home and crashed. My mother was like patting me to sleep and stuff, I felt like a young kid after a really long time. I love how even if you keep getting older and older, you still feel like a small little girl when you're like lying in your mum's lap. So comforting (:

Hm, got work to do nowww ): Have Tamil and need to study BIO :O but my hand is swollen (again) so idk how I'm gonna copy notes ): 

This is the WORST birthday ever.  I mean, don't get me wrong, I really appreciate all the wishes that I got today, love you guys soso much seriously. But I'm THIS close to breaking down right now. I have a heckload of work to do which I have yet to finish. I am going to die. Can forget about sleep today ready.

I feel so ashamed of myself. I cannot believe I procrastinated until liddat. I AM SO STUPID. I have to finish lit aa now, and I'm at a complete loss for what to do. No inspiration at all and its 1500 words. Wtfff.

THE WORST PART? I NEED TO GO OUT FOR DINNER NOW. WTFFFFF. Cause my Dad already booked the restaurant and I can't not go. Which basically means I'll only be back at like 11+

Okay trying my best not to cry now, got to at least look happy for my parents.

I AM SIXTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN :D

HAHA yay, today was a good day! :D woke up latelate in the morning, ate prata in the morning (oops) and went for CIP with Eswari! Got dreadfully lost and walked around randomly xD We're going to volunteer at this Hospice in Novena, its really touching and sad cause its basically palliative care ):

And after the orientation, we went for lunch!

At Velocity, which is a very weird mall because people actually play squash and stuff inside. So odd. Anyway, we ate then I left for tuitionnnn. Was like one hour early, so I sat around below Aspen and koped free wifi xD tuition was quite fun, because I actually understood stuff! I'm quite good at electrochem yay! :D and my mum had told me earlier in the morning that we were going to the temple so I was wearing this unglam indian top. In the end my parents decided to bring me to Vivo for birthday shopping! I was so -.- cause I had to walk around like some weirdo. SIGH.

But anyway, birthday shopping with parents was surprisingly fun! Got new clothes and nice new casual shoes! :D yay(: going big time shopping tmr with my bro! :D HEHEHE. It is my sixteenth birthday anyway! :D I'm given licence to waste money on useless material things (:

So basically, today was a good day (:

Okay guys, feeling really inspired right now, so decided to post and share it with you guys! Basically I watched this interview with Kumar on Youtube. Its called Truth or Dare. You should all go and watch it. Seriously. It really moved me, and made me look at things differently.

Its about how Kumar faced sooo many things in his life, got put down so many times, was so confused, didn't have any support from anyone. He got pushed down over and over again, people were insulting him and calling him names at every turn, and he really didn't know what to do. But he kept at life, didn't give up, didn't change himself for anything. In fact, he turned all the negative vibes around, turned them into positive energy, made it his career and is now happy and content.

And it just really got me thinking, if he can go through all that shit in his life, and still be happy with the person he is at the end of the day, there's no reason for us not to. We just have to learn not to give up on ourselves.

I FEEL SO INSPIRED.

Rock on Kumar, rock on. And oh, HE IS REALLY FUNNY. A bit R-rated, okay fine VERY R-rated, but he's hilarious. He's so talented and great (: YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION KUMAR (:

Indian Pride (Y)

Okay, Alagu told me I'm way too pessimistic, and I agree with that actually. So I'm going to list out the top 3 things in my life which make me a very blessed person.

1. My brother. Seriously. He is the one person I love most in the world, hands down. And he is the one person I trust the most. I know I can go to him anytime for help, and he'll be waiting there with open arms. He's seen me when I'm at my most unglam moments and still loves me to bits. He gives me these huge, warm, strong hugs that just make me feel so safe and protected. I know he'd take a bullet for me anyday, and I would for him too. He broke up with his girlfriend for me, and there is no way I'd marry a guy if my brother isn't up for it. My brother is the most important person in my life. Ever. My patronus charm (:

2. My parents. Okay, they are really awesome. I know I whine about them ALL THE TIME. But they are the most incredible parents I could ever ask for and I would neverever replace them.

3. Alagu. Okay seriously, she is the most awesome best friend anyone can ask for. She has always been there for me, no matter what. Put up with all my shitty moodswings and the depressed sad phases of my life. She's stuck by me through it all, and if I were ever to have a Christian style wedding, I know who'd be my bridesmaid (: for now I'll have to settle for her standing behind me on the manamedai thing. Definitely the godmother of my kids. She knows when to say the right thing at the right time, and she just means so much to me, I don't really know how to put it down in words.

Okay I've decided that this is a good exercise for me, and I will try my best to write something I am thankful for at the end of every blog post from now on. 

Okay feeling depressed now ): at sumitra's house, koping her computer cause I really needed to blog to get this off my chest. Birthday coming up soon, and I hatee my birthday. Cause its supp to be the best day of the year, the most awesome, the happiest.  But it always ends up being the most screwed up. Cause the people you expect to wish you first, to wish you the longest sweetest SMS, the most heartfelt one, ends up forgetting. The first SMS you're supp to get, arrives at like 2 in the afternoon, some insignificant time. and what hurts the most is that fact that you would have woken up at 12 to wish that special person. And you just feel terrible the whole day.

Happens every year. And I know you're not supposed to expect anything, but you can't possibly not expect anything on your birthday. This sucks.

Oh and on a different note, today was.. Okay I guess. Not too awkward or anything, but can't avoid that lingering sadness that just hangs above your head like a dark rain cloud.

I FEEL SO.. insignificant. 

Hm, I have reached the conclusion that I don't like twitter. It doesn't have the personal happiness kind of thing that Tumblr has, I don't feel comfortable ranting there cause then it just seems attention seeking.
Sadlife. I guess I just won't be super active on it or ath. just have lor. Update once in a while. Tumblr will always be my one true love (: 

Okay I feel quite -.- and D: and mostly ): things with friends screwing up. Idk la, we seemed so close last year and stuff, but things just falling apart this year, dunno if its just me, maybe I'm imagining things. Ohwell, I hope its just a phase. But I should seriously stop trying so hard to fix things all the time. I think I'm just making things worse. Ergh, feel so annoyed. And sad. I seriously don't know what's wrong, I feel like I'm annoying you a lot. I guess your life has just caught up with you again, I can't interfere with that. Just.. Ah, I don't know.

But yeah, something that really pissed me off a couple of days back: I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE ACT DIFFERENTLY AROUND PEOPLE AND WHEN YOU'RE ALONE. Seriously, you talk about how you hate being popular and like how everybody is backstabbing you and what shit. But the thing is, you are just shunning people who genuinely care about you, because they're not very popular or very cool or whatever, and you're just stuck with the fake bitches. You're bringing this on yourself honestly.

There's only so much I can take also seriously. Yeah sure, you're nice to me when its just us and stuff, but in front of people I feel so -.- whatever la. if you're gonna continue doing this, you're just gonna lose someone who genuinely cares about you, your loss.

I'm supp to be doing Math Unit Summary now D: but yeah, my windows is screwing up so rebooting it now. I need to get office for mac omg :O I hate windows >(

I feel sad.

Butttt on the bright side, me and alagu are getting close again! Things were a little screwed at times, mostly cause of me and my bullshit, but now its all good(: HTHTs <3

Gah, I hate how everything in life is so fickle and temporary. I guess there are just a few people who really stick around through all your messups. And they are the ones who really matter. I'm gonna stop trying so hard, just see how things go. If we don't' make it through this, well maybe we're not meant to be, maybe just too different. I dunno la. 

I feel sad. Not too sure why. Its a whole heck load of reasons I think tbh. Miss a lot of people right now. Need a really long hug. Feel like just sitting somewhere and crying. Like in a park or something. Or the beach. Yes the beach definitely. Really feel like going there.

Grargh, I feel soo.. Burdened. And like really sad. And I kind of feel like I'm being replaced? Idk. I feel like just crawling into bed. So sick of everything.

Oh, and not really looking forward to my birthday.

Walou, damn irritated now seriously. If people don't know what I'm talking about, somebody flamed me on Nicole's FS. What the shit la seriously. Its so annoyinggg.

Apparently, I'm so 'wanna be' and I 'suck up' to all the popular girls or something and I'm like wtf. I mean, you don't even know me or my relationships with my friends. Not everyone is a conniving bitch fyi. Is it completely incomprehensible that I like Nicole and Steph genuinely because they're nice and because we get along?!

Its irritating that I'm getting pulled into unnecessary shit/drama even though I'm so uninvolved la please. Ergh.

Oh and anon, if you're reading this, which I doubt since you obviously haven't even taken the effort to know me before flaming me online, please spend your free time improving your English rather than to hate on people.

Honestly. 

Hm, wow, haven't blogged in pretty long ): but yeah well. the last 2 weeks have been horribleeee. Lost my phone, lost my wallet then found it, and lots of other shit. But oh well, at least the horror is over. Been reallyyy careless and forgetful recently, think my parents are pretty worried tbh xD but well, on the bright side, things are loads better with my parents. things were pretty screwed for a while, mum wasn't really talking to me properly and dad was disappointed with me and all, and I felt like the biggest failure and the biggest disappointment ever. But idk what happened, but my parents started being nice to me again, and started being more understanding. Me bawling in front of them probably had something to do with it though >< but yeah, parents are being super nice(:

Other than that, schoolwise, I'm pretty sure my Math teacher hates me ): idk, I am trying, really. I've done more math homework in the past 2 months than the whole of last year. and I know I'm not perfect, but I really am trying. I really slipped a lot last year, my discipline completely died, and I'm not proud of that person at all. Yeah, sometimes I forget to do hw, but its LOADS better than last year, and I'll keep improving. I guess this is a promise to myself. To really start (continue actually) finishing ALL my homework, esp math. SIGH.

Oh and I think I've more or less decided on my subject combi for JC! yay(: I don't think I have much flexibility from here onwards tbh xD well for now its: Bio, Chem, Math, English Language and Linguistics (exciting right!?!?)

haha so yes, as you can see I'm pretty much freaking excited about ELL yay! :D hahaha, can't wait :D the only appealing thing about JC right now actually ><

okay anyway, turning 16 in less than 2 weeks. Cannot believe it man. I've made it this far without killing myself! I consider that to be an achievement heh(: hm, not really looking forward to it though, I have a bad feeling about it ): argh, see how la.

dumdedumdum, I don't really know what to say now, so yeah, I'll be goinggg (: