; you'll always be my thunder
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Hurts
Thursday, November 04, 2010 || 7:40 PM
You know that sensation you get sometimes, when it feels like someone's hand is squeezing the hell out of your heart? The feeling that you can't breathe anymore, the feeling when every inhalation hurts? Common sense tells me its grief, but it feels like it just doesn't encompass the true meaning of that sensation.
Grief. Sounds harsh and heavy in your mouth doesn't it. It feels like someone is forcibly making you drink water when you're having hiccups. This horrific feeling has been plaguing me for the past couple of hours. I can't think straight, can't sit still in one place, can't find anything to distract myself with.
It's like everything reminds me of the same thing. Everything. It sucks when I frequent all my favourite haunts and find that in each of these places, I've thought of you. And the memories hurt more than anything. And I feel terrible all the time. I try to act like I'm fine, I try to act like its not affecting me, but it is. How could it not?
I feel so screwed up right now.