; you'll always be my thunder

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okay, i never thought i'd be saying this. but i think i bore people. and annoy them. cause im always talking about the same few things in my life. and i don't want to be some sort of burden on them. so i've decided to stop. talking openly about my problems just makes me more depressed anyway. so i shall blog instead of talk. at least if im annoying you, you can always close the browser. which you're free to do btw. hmph.

enough of all the self pity man. im getting pathetic. im just gonna have to stick up for myself and deal with my own problems without just whining about it. openly anyway. cause i know this isn't the worst thing thats gonna be thrown at me. so i should just chill out. and just tell myself the worst has not come, as pessimistic as it sounds, its whats gonna get me through. oh well. whatever works right?

i hate annoying people omg. wait, i meant annoying as a verb. i hate the action of annoying people. not annoying people. although noone really likes annoying people. oh well. im rambling. xD i shall get going. :D

Ergh. Okay, so basically I'm sick of all your excuses. If you really wanted to talk to me, if you really cared, you would have found a way. so please don't insult my intelligence with all your excuses. and i'm just sick and tired of all the drama, all the emotional roller-coastering this has given me. sure, i can wait another week, another month, another year. but i know that inadvertently, inevitably, we'll be in this same situation soon enough. because it never changes. I don't know. maybe its me, maybe im too needy. but thats just the way i am. so why should i  just waste my time, when i don't see any effort from your part?

so if you're reading this, which i don't think you are, but yeah. just don't waste your energy. im not gonna reply, even if you do text me. just forget about it la. im just gonna move on, and stop thinking about this. and i'll just avoid you when we go out or whatever. im just tired.

and i should seriously start caring more about my studies.

i. am. going. to. die. for. the. exams.

i seriously need to buck up if i want to fix up very sad GPA. ergh. i can't wait to graduate from JC. CANNOT WAIT. then can finallyyyy drop math. just the thought of it, comforts me.

amen.

tough day ahead everyone. hope i survive without bouts of stupidity.

It's time to put on a fake, wide smile, to tie up my hair and to go out with my chin high up.

hiding the hurt inside of me, hiding the slight quiver of my smile, hiding the slight slip of my perfect facade.

just hiding everything that matters.

ergh. i feel horrible. all of a sudden. it feels like everything is gonna come to a crescendo, like something big is going to happen, but i have no idea what. and i hate not knowing. i feel like im unprepared for something big. and i just feel so uneasy and terrible. whywhywhy.

guess i'll find out soon enough, not that im looking forward to it at all, since its probably just gonna flip my life over again.

joy.



okay guys, i just watched the notebook, and i MELTED. and cried like shit. AAH. it was so insanely sad omg! especially since i knew what was coming, which made me more saddd. D: but it was really sweet ehh! you should all go and watch!! i only watched cause nicole chua had been bugging me to watch it, and im so glad i finally did, cause its AWESOME. 

OKAY, i fail. xD

yes, i do have a tumblr, and i do love it very much, but its just not the same as actually posting here, don't you think? so i'm gonna maintain both!!

Heh, so ignore my last post, I'm gonna continue posting here. This will be my actual blogblog. my tumblr will be just for reblogging cool quotes and pictures(:

so, expect more of my ranting and raving alright? HAHA.

but yeah, i think i've officially moved on. i CBB anymore, and this time i mean it. i hope. so yeah. YAY.

and I'll leave you guys with a quote!