; the pause before the crescendo

; you'll always be my thunder

CAP Submission

Wednesday, March 04, 2009 || 10:04 PM

My submissions for my CAP applications. Please tag about what you think. These are my original works and should not be copied/plagiarised without my permission.

1)

Bedtime Stories

As I waited,
Each night,
Eagerly for those tales,
I wondered and I pondered.
What would it be today?

Stories, often told
In the gentle soothing voice of my
Mother.
Or, in the rich baritone of my
Father.

Stories of fire breathing
Dragons.
Stories of princesses
Locked away in
Towers.
Stories of talking bears
And singing toads.

These stories brought forth,
A whole lot of dreams.
Wistful even.

When I would wish I could just find solace
From the endless hours of school.

Where I would be transported,
From the comfort of my bed to
The scalding heat of the Sahara,
Or perhaps,
The icy mountains of Nepal.

No matter the story,
My imagination was sparked.
My childhood,
Sat on the shelves in my room.

A book, of
Bedtime stories.

2)

Park Bench

All my life,
People have surrounded me.

They come and they go.
I forget the many faces.
Except one.

I’ve seen him mature.
I’ve seen him grow.

The first time I met him was
When he was sitting on my age worn
Seat, fingering every nook and cranny,
Waiting for his school bus,
On his first day at school.

So our friendship grew.
He came to visit me every morning.

Then he went away to college and
I would only see him twice a year.

Then he came back to be with me.

One day a young girl came and sat there.
And there they sat at opposite ends.
A young love bloomed as they sneaked
Glances at each other.

As the days went by,
The physical distance between
The two grew less.

One day, they just stopped visiting.
I thought they had forgotten me.

Although my skin was hard and cracked,
With rusty iron nails pinning me still.
My heart was smooth,
And now, wounded.

I grew resentful.

Years later,
A young boy took his seat.
Waiting for his school bus.

The resemblance was startling.
My friend had remembered me.

3)

A New Beginning

I drift along,
Led by the commandeering,
But gentle,
Hands of my mother.

She is the sea and I am but
A boat.

She tells me the stories of my family
Before me.
Who have all one day, been deemed
Acceptable to proceed to
Adulthood.

They will join their ancestors
Who make up the brilliant sea,
And help to guide their younger
Followers.

My mother holds me tight,
Refuses to let go when I inform her
That I am old enough.
That I am ready.

I let myself be engulfed
In the arms of my mother
For one last time.

She releases me when I give
Her a slight push.

I turn my face away from her and
Move forward.

I gasp when I realize that the sea
Stood still and I wasn’t moving.

Ah. I think. It is time
There was nothing anchoring
Me down now.

And I am happy.

4)

Lines on my Face

I met someone today.
He knew exactly who I was,
And what I’ve done.

He scrutinized me,
Told me exactly what each
Line on my face
Meant.

Melancholy, anguish, regret,
Dereliction.

He also said there was a faded line.
Made a long time ago.

Many a person did not know
What that line stood for.
But he did.
He was there with me
When that line was still fresh.

It was a line that represented
My laughter, my happiness.

I asked,
Where were you all this time?

He replied,
Exactly where your happiness went.
You hated me.
You told me to flee.

And I took your joy along
With me.

And I realized,
I lost my vivacity
When I lost
Myself.

And I reached out to shake.
I was,
Hence you are.

5)

Ruler of my Kingdom

I trudge slowly,
Through the thick undergrowth,
Recalling each fallen leaf and
Each thrown pebble.

Is it just me,
Or have the trees grown shorter?

I remember them as unattainable,
Faraway peaks.
To where I could climb,
And escape from everyone.

I trip upon a thick
Root,
And I smile at the familiarity.

Oh! How many times have
I tripped on that particular spot
Before?

I find the exact spot,
he place marked with an X.

I remove some of the
Piled up leaves and I
Find it.

A chest.
I open it,
My hands shaking in excitement.

I gasp when I see it.
I lift it out.

A crown,
Made of leaves and feathers,
Reminding me when I

Was the ruler of my
Kingdom.

YOYO guys! this is where you guys get special access. u know my poem A New Beginning right? i have my first draft of that poem. i had people tread it n they said that it could be interpreted in sick ways, so i kinda changed it. i didn't submit my first draft. but u can read it here!!

Gentle Caress

We sway in a rhythm
A rhythm, only known
To us.

We meet,
Caress for caress.
Touch for touch.

We couldn’t be any closer.
We are touching skin to skin.

For he is the sea.
And I am but
A boat.

The horizon,
My enemy at heart,
Reaches out a hand to touch
Him.

A prick of hurt stings my
Aching heart as he doesn’t
Shrug it away.

But he assures me he was mine for life.
And I believe him as he rocks me to sleep.
And as I lie there in his arms,
Not quite asleep,

When finally,
He engulfs me in his arms.
And takes me for his.

And I smile,
Contented.

haha. so yeah. hope you enjoyed it. plsplspls tag! even if u hate them, tell me u hate them. thks alot guys. n dont plagiarize!!!

UPDATE!!

|| 7:05 PM

yoyos people! i know i haven't posted in a very long time.well, not a real post anyway. i do know that random facebook quizes don NOT count. sigh. so my purpose here today is to tell you my schedule and justify my reasons for not updating. lols. oh, and updating you on my notsointeresting life. kay. here is my schedule:

** I wake up at 5.30 everyday, including Saturday.

Monday:
School finishes at 2.50. I rush like hell to eat lunch and go for INO at 3.15. Play Harmonium until 5.30 then leave and go home. Reach home at around 6.30. Eat dinner, do homework then sleep at arnound 10.30.

Tuesday:
School finishes at 2.50. I rush like hell to eat lunch and go for ICS Drama Module, which is freaking fun. I'll elaborate laters. Anyway, drama ends at 4.30 and i usually go home with lavanya kumaresh. Reach home at around 5.30. Eat dinner, do homework, study for a while, sleep at10.30.

Wednesday:
School finishes at 1.20. Have lunch. Go for ICS Show practice (I am acting in the drama) at around 2. Do the samescenes billions of times then leave school alone at around 3.30/4. Reach home at around 5. Leave home at 5.15 for tuition which starts at 6. Ends at 8. Reach home at 8.45. Eat dinner, do homework. Sleep at around 11.

Thursday:
School finishes at 2.50. Rush like hell and eat, report for INO at 3.15. Play Harmonium until 6. Leave school with Eswari and Alagu. Reach home at around 7.15. Eat dinner, do homework and sleep at around 9. (Im usually tired after INO)

Friday:
School finishes at 1.20. Hvae lunch. Report for English Debate at 1.45. Debate until 5. Leave school alone/or with Ni Qian. Reach home at around 6. Eat dinner. Read up on emails for house practice. Think/Research for a few jokes to tell sec 1s. sleep at around 9.

~~~~~ You think its over don't you. Nope, there is still more to come! ~~~~~

Saturday:
Report to school at 6.50 for Buckle House Prac. Cheer/Scream/Fan like hell until 10.30. Debrief until 11. Go straight for INO. Stay in INO until 12 (I miss the first part of INO, which starts at 8, because of house prac) After which, i go for ICS Show drama. Which ends at around 2.30. I go home alone.Reach home at around 3.30. Eat lunch (my first meal of the day) and sleep like a log. (house prac is really tiring) Wake up at around 5.30. Get ready to go to the temple. Reach home at around 11. Go straight to sleep. AGAIN.

Sunday:
Finally, i wake up at 10-11. Eat Brunch. Slack until about 2 (includes watching tv) then do homework until 4. have lunch. then study for a while. Spend quality time with my family and just before you know it, its 10 and i have to sleep.

*cycle repeats itself*

SO. do u guys seriously blame me for not updateing?? im really exhausted most of the time now.. im also very irritable at home. this means that i scream at my bro for no reason at all most of the time. *cringes* sorry. sigh. i just feel like collapsing when i get. home. btw, i inflamed a tendon in my hand 3 times in 2 months due to overuse. hurts like hell once in a while. now i will go into detail about my various commitments.

INO:
haha. my first one. INO is practically <33 la. i love it alot, but it can also get quite stressful, especially now that SYF is nearing. we have to learn a brand new song, which is 6 pages long, and perfect another one. the thing is, due to my inflamed tendon, i missed a couple of sessions. which made kinnari vry pissed off. she kept nagging at me. KINNARI, IT WAS NOT MY FAULT! I NEVER PONN INO! anyway, so yeah, im a little behind. andi get really nervous when i play in front of seniors n stuff and majorly screw it up.. i think i did vry badly for the auditions which means i prob won't get into SYF. well, i do want to play in SYF but i don't think i'll be devastated if i don't get in or anything. cause im already busy enough. buti will be disappointed tho. cause i really don't mind sacrificing time to practice for SYF. so yeah. getting kind of stressed out. but anyway, KINNARI, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TEACHING ME THE SONG. i really do appreciate it. okay. thats about it for INO. oh and the veena sec 1s are really enthu abt INO. they didn't want to leave even after INO had ended. They wanted to stay n practice!!! :D

Debate:
Hmm.. My brand new CCA. I think i have really cool batchmates+seniors! rgdebate= <333 seriously. i do enjoy debate alot. i don't really know my juniors that much tho. oops! was shocked at some of the things i found out about tho. *nudges pavithra and winks* lols. sorry, inside joke. but anyway, debate can be time consuming la. cause of all the research we have to do and stuff. the best part is definitely going to the JGs to support! so fun man! oh and going out for CCA dinner. lols. so, yes i <3 rgdebate.

ICS:

I am going to split this into 2 parts.

Drama Module
Drama module is the funnest thing in the entire world!!! seriously! its damn damn fun! lavanya k is in charge. so wat we (pavithra, premikha, kayal, keerthana-207 and me) do is basically act. haha. duh right? anyway, for the first part, lava will tell us all to do a group drama. either comedy or emo. then all of us have to think of characters and the plot in abt 15 mins. then we proceed to make lava writhe in laughter. :D then for the next part, she'll give us all a character and theme. then we'll improv(abt 5 mins prep time) then act with her. damn fun. we are all damn close and have lots of fun together. like small small family.. :D LAVA, WHEN YOU GRADUATE, WE WILL ALL MISS YOU LIKE HELL! please visit us, poor souls. we should continue with the sessions! so yes, ICS people in other comms, this is the part where you feel envious of my wonderfully wonderful comm!

ICS Show Drama
Okay, for those who don't know, i am acting in the ICS drama this year. i cam't disclose anything about the story(unless i want srruthi to rip me apart slowly and painfully) but what i CAN tell you is: ITS DAMN COOL! WELL DONE ICS EXCO! the story is seriously awesome. its an emo drama not a comedy. sorry guys. the cast right now is basically: Lavanya K, Mukilarasi, Shyama, Leena, Sowndarya, Aarthi and me. this is NOT CONFIRMED. srruthi might add/remove people. so anyway, we usually have alot of fun during these sessions. although we do repeat the same scene 3452 times. lols. but since the story is fabulous, everything is fabulous.

Buckle:
Bucklebucklebuckle! well, for those who don't know, i am in the cheer squad in the house comm. and i FREAKING LOVE IT! its sooo fun! seriously. we cheer, laugh, eat, fan, scream, get high, dance etc! so for those sec1s who are thinking of joining house comm, DO! its not too much of a commitment either. although we get very tired and work hard to get you guys to cheer. so please sec1s, BE ENTHU! the comm is really putting in alot of effort for u guys and we just want you to appreciate it. you just have to be enthu and put your heart and soul into buckle. a house is like if you're in it, you're in it for life. you will find lots of friends and seniors. just try and fit into the buckle family kay? when we come and talk to you, don't tau us. please. -_-" it really un-motivates us when we make the effort to cone talk to you guys and you give us these curt replies. so yeah. BE ENTHU! i do fan u like mad, you know. how many other house have you seen doing that. only the cool green dudes. :D

RS:
Hmm. For RS, we (applicants for CAP) are encouraged to take on a literary or CAP topic. my group (Pavithra, Lavinya, Rebecca Teng and me) tried out for 2 topics. one is about the role of villains in literature, mentored bu ms sharon ong. the other one is about the depiction of monsters in literature, mentored by Mr Sakar. so yeah. i hope we get selected for at least one. :D keep you fingers crossed for us!

anyway, that about it for today. i know i still owe you my CAP portfolio poems. i'll post it up soon okay? then you can tag about your feelings toward them. :D anyway, hope i made up for my neglecting this blog by this super super long post. and the random quizzes. :D

<333333333 arathi

How Stupid Am I?

|| 6:58 PM

Directions:
Mark the stupid things you've done, then add up the number of questions you marked. This test is out of 50 questions which means that the number you get as your score(x2) is your percentage.

1. [ x] Forgot to put the lid on the blender, turned it on, and had everything fly out
2. [] Gotten your head stuck between the stair rails (my house gate. -.-)
3. [ ] Broken a chair by leaning back in it
4. [x]Had gum fall out of your mouth while you were talking
5. [x]Choked on your own spit while you were talking
6. [ ] Had people tell you that you are blonde when you're not, or had people tell you that your blonde highlights are going to your head
7. []Been caught staring at your crush by your crush.
8. [x] Have looked for something for at least 5 min then realized it was in your hand
9. [x]Tried to push open a door that said pull
10. [x]Tried to pull open a door that said push

Running total: 6

11. [ ] Have actually believed someone when they said that they knew how to make a love-potion
12. [x]Have hit yourself in the process of trying to hit something else
13. [x]Have tripped and fallen UP the stairs
14. [ ] Have actually exploded marshmallows in the microwave
15. []Have gotten gum stuck in your hair
16. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while trying to blow a bubble
17. [ ]Have had the juice from a mini tomato squirt out and hit somebody else when you bit into it
18. [ ] Have had your drink come out your nose because you were laughing so hard
19. [x]Have called one of your good friends by the wrong name
20. [] Have skinned your toe because you were playing soccer or kickball with flip flops on or you were barefoot

Running total: 10

21. [ ] Have put a sticker on your forehead, forgot it was there, and went out in public with it on
22. [ ] Have fallen out of a moving vehicle
23. [x]Have run into a closed door
25. []Searched for your cell phone while you were talking on it
26. []It has taken you longer than 5 min to get a joke
27. [ ] Have gotten your hair stuck in a blow dryer
28. [ ]Have gotten your hair stuck in a fan
29. [x]Tripped on a crack in the sidewalk
30. [] Said o'clock after saying how many min after the hour, example: 5:30 o'clock, or 6:15 o'clock

Running total:12

31. []After someone told you that there was gum on the ground, you stepped on it
32. []Put on a white shirt even though you already knew it was raining outside
33. [x]Have ever walked up to a stranger because you thought they were someone else
34. [ ] Ever been kicked out of a grocery store/off their property
35. [x]Touched the stove, the curling iron, a hot pan, etc when its on, even though you knew it was hot
36. [x]Taken off your clothes to change into something else then accidentally put the old clothes back on
37. [x]Wondered why something wasn't working then realized it wasn't plugged in
38. []Put the cereal in the fridge, or put the milk in the cupboard
39. []Walked into a pole
40. [ ] Wore two different earrings or shoes by accident/stolen someones shoes by accident

Running total: 16

41. [x] Put your shirt on backwards/inside-out without realizing it then left your house
42. [] Tried to take a picture of someone's eye with the flash on
43. [x] Gotten a ring stuck on your finger because you put it on even though you knew it was too small
44. [ ] Walked out of the bathroom with toilet paper stuck to your shoe without realizing it
45. [x] Went to go do something/go get something, then when you got there, you forgot what it is was that you were going to do
46. [x] Picked up someone else's drink and drank out of it by accident when your drink was right next to it!
47. [x] Fallen out of your chair while trying to pick something up
48. [] Have poked yourself in the eye
49. [x] Have gotten in the shower with your socks still on
50. [ ] Melted your hairbrush while blow drying your hair

Number of Checked Answers: 21
Percentage: 21x2
= 42%

How innocent am I?

|| 6:52 PM

How innocent are you?

- If you're tagged you have to do it
- Just erase the answer the last person did and fill it in yrself
- After you do it, tag at least 10 other people

[x]You've used puppy eyes to persuade someone
[x]You've thought/planned of killing someone (muahahaha! :X)
[x]You've lied to your friends/family
[]You've cheated in a game
[]You've spazzed someone
So far: 3/5

[]You've cheated before
[]You've used someone.
[x]You've blamed your mistake on someone else
[]You've stolen something and did not return it
[]You've bullied someone before.
So far: 4/10

[]You are/were once racist/sexist.
[]You've swore to your parents. (I swore about my dad to my mum. counted? :X)
[x]You've teased your siblings before.
[x]You've said something about someone behind their backs before.
[x]You've ditched someone.
So far: 7/15

[x]You've pissed someone off badly before
[ ]You've broken something on purpose
[x]You knew that you were wrong but still fought with someone
[]You've hit someone badly for no reason
[x]You've persuaded someone to lie for you before.
So far: 10/20

[x]You've went somewhere without permission before.
[x]You've played a prank joke on someone before.
[]You've hurt someone by saying something really mean.
[x]You've lied to someone you love. (previously, I said I lied to my friends/family. I love them, so...)
[ ]You've lied somewhere in this note.
Out of 25: 13/25

Number of 'x' (times) x4, then minus it from a 100.
e.g
number of x= 16
16 x 4= 64
100 - 64= 36
You are 36% innocent.

number of x = 13
13 x 4 = 54
100 - 54 = 46

I'm 46% innocent.

100% YOU HAVE TO HAVE LIED IN THIS NOTE, CUZ YOU CAN'T BE THAT GOOD/INNOCENT!!
75-99% You're mostly innocent..
50-74% You're evil.not innocent..but no one's perfect ah ma... plus it's fun to be evil sometimes rite?
20-49% You're really evil!
0-19% You're MEGA EVIL >:)

How Screwed Up is My Teenage Life

|| 6:39 PM

How Screwed up is My Teenage Life:

[ ] Gotten detention.
[ ] Gotten your phone taken away in class. (in canteen? -.- during school hour.)
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[ ] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test.

Total: 0

[ ] Arrived late to class more than 5 times. (I think for Mdm Lim's class.)
[x] Didn’t do homework over 5 times
[ ] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[ ] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[x] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class. (Scolded...)

Total : 2

[x] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school. (was sick..)
[] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[] Threw stuff across the room. (HAHA, last year @ EOY examination room)
[x] Laughed at the teacher. (DUH, HAHAHAHA. omg.)

Total : 5

[ ] Pulled down the Fire Alarm.
[x] Went on Myspace , Facebook , Xanga , etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took Pictures during school hours.
[ ] Called someone during School hours. (recess at locker)
[ ] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc... During class.

Total : 7

[] Threw something at the teacher.
[] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[ ] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class test.
[] Ate food during class.

Total : 8

[ ] Gotten a call from school.
[ ] Couldn’t go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn’t take your stuff to school.
[ ] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear

Total : 9

[] Faked your parents signature
[x] Slept in class.
[ ] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[x] Copied homework

Total: 11/35

~~ Approx: 31%

lols. i so goody goody sia.